My little blueberry's first picture courtesy of the ER visit for bleeding after Azriel's balloons went up to meet him. Very scary but thankfully all looks okay. It made me realize that I really am wishing my pregnancy away. With all the hopes for a TAC dashed, stressing about not having many options and only looking down the road to November, mentally preparing for a second loss in less than a year.... I'm not enjoying the fact that my baby is here now. I'm pregnant today. I don't want to look back and wish I would have enjoyed my moments. I did with Azriel, and this little one deserves the same. Besides, 7+ weeks and still no MS?! I'm way over due.. So sweetie, starting today it's time to just relish in having you here. Of course I'll never stop fighting to protect you and if I think care providers aren't doing enough, they won't hear the end of it. It's not just me, your Daddy is no pushover either and with both of us together at every appointment.. well, I'm sure you can guess. :)
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